Om Shanti

A beautiful song that I wanted you all to hear.

the song keeps going around in my head....i never really liked the beatles, probably because everyone else did....i was more of a doors girl, or the zombies....or the pretty things....i think i got old this year......what a beautiful song what a tribiute to a woman.......about the way she moves.....ever seen an indian woman walk.....even with a pile of whatever on her head she glides.....like a swan on the water...i hope i glide a bit....i hope that someone will think one day....that i ....to quote, attract them like no other lover.....

Got Brass in Pocket!

you have to keep your feet on the ground my mother shouted over the phone, i was at heathrow taking my 10 week old baby overland across africa..............i didnt know what she was talking about,i was 21, the world beckoned and i went.....everwhere...its all mark twains fault.......
sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails,
Explore
Dream,
DISCOVER.

and i did and now i dont want to sail away anymore.....i just want love ....a big love a crazy love...

i thought long and hard yesterday about why i havnt been on my own blog.......
strange i thought .....and its about me being a fixer.....and therapist a bloody know all counsellor.
so i go to other peoples blogs and respond to them,
i dont maybe have the courage to truly write or even actually know what i fee anymore........i just respond, i just listen, i just utter words of common sense and people think i am clever,
how clever can i be when i cant even touch down with myself and find out what i actually feel need and want.
so i just keep fixing.....thats what the best therapists do, we just fix,so we dont have to look at our own crap.

i didnt know what a blog was until a few months ago,and as the weeks went on and i visited timsuzi, i realised that it was a wonderful forum to actually be all that you are without judgment or guilt , a place where you can be big and little , a place to play a place where you dont have to use capital letters if you dont want to, a place where you can spell familly with 2 ls because it looks better. so about me , every contradiction, very feminine, but i always want to be a cowboy instaed of a saloon gal or a squaw. i am a therapist, of the counselling type.the picture on my blog is me at 18 at art school, i think i was born a tart,. i live alone in cornwall with my son joey, he is 10 and has made me feel reborn, my late arrival is what i call him,we live in a typical cornish cottage. i am lucky i have lots of good friends and the last year has been tough,lots of changes lots of tears but i just remember what toad says in wind in the willows.......onwards and upwards,,,and thats what i do....so i am going to put some of my paintings on tomorrow and i hope that someone will say hello to me soon, feels like the start of something good and pure and new......love yashenka